More often than not when we devote our lives and our time to helping others we end up giving away so much of our heart. Some days the pieces we give away are kept and treasured and other days they are lost, trampled or broken. But we persevere and we continue to give to those whom we have been chosen to serve. As a Centre for infants it seems as though our hearts are split between two emotions; the happiness and joy of saving a life and providing a better alternative, and the mixed emotions of happiness and loss we feel when we see them leave us even though we know that they will be loved by their new family. Some situations are harder and some are easier and every single child is different and unique. I am about to share a story with you about a very precious girl. This story has taken a long time for me to write. At first I didn’t want to share it because I didn’t want to believe it was true, but then I realized that I had to share it, because my God is sovereign and righteous and perfect in everything that He does. And I trust that His plan and His ways are greater than our plans and our ways. So, here is the story of Pierette.
Barry and Aminata were two young teenagers; they had been seeing one another for a while. Aminata soon found out that she was expecting and she informed Barry. When their family’s found out that they were pregnant, there was only one thing to do, remove them from the family. It is unacceptable to have a child before marriage. Both of them knew this. Aminata lived with her sister and Barry with his parents. Aminata was quickly shunned by her family and Barry’s family didn’t want to hear about it at all so while Aminata was still pregnant they called the Centre and asked if they could give up their child when she was born. They could not risk being permanently banned from their family’s lives. Our Centre agreed, but we urged them to reconsider and to wait until she was born before they made their decision. However, they decided that they wanted to have their family’s approval more than they wanted to care for the child growing inside Aminata.
On November 18th 2013 Pierette was born to Aminata and Barry. A small, beautiful piece of heaven was brought into the world. The following day they called our Centre and asked if they could drop her off. We agreed and Pierette became apart of our lives. As time went on a family came along, one of our own workers, and decided that they would like to give Pierette a home and all the love they could. So we began the process of adoption for them. It was quickly turning into another beautiful adoption and Pierette would soon go home with her Mother and Father.
In August 2014 three of our children fell ill, Pierette was one of them. We called in the doctor and tests were done. It was determined that they all had Malaria and we began treating them immediately. Two of the children began to improve, but Pierette was not responding as well as the others. The doctor soon found out that she had a stomach infection. We continued to fight against the infection and malaria, and we did all we could to keep Pierette here with us. At midnight on the 27th Pierette’s condition worsened and the ladies drove to the doctor, however, despite all of our efforts, in the early hours on August 28th God took back the little piece of heaven He had given us. Pierette’s adoptive mother was with her that night and was with her when God took her home. Pierette was almost ten months old and was weeks away from going home with her forever family. The women gathered together, and spent the night in tears mourning the loss of Pierette. In the morning Pierette was buried.
We have now entered into the New Year, there will be new adoptions in 2015, new celebrations, new life, new sorrow, new trials but I know that our God will remain the same and will remain faithful to us. He has a plan for every child that He brings into our care, and His word says that He will provide for us all that we need. He provided life and safety for Pierette until she no longer needed it and He called her home. Pierette’s family was so close to taking her home, she had been chosen, a family had said yes to her and she was going home. The extended family was ready and everyone was awaiting the day that it would all be made official. One of the reasons this has been so hard for me to share is because I don’t know why God took her home. I don’t have an answer for that question. God does not have to explain Himself to us, and He has the right to do what He wants, and as believers we need to trust in his judgment. God chose to take our little girl home and He didn’t tell us why, but He has left a peace with us. It’s the same peace His son came to give us when He arrived all those years ago as an infant in a manger. It’s the peace that passes all understanding and the peace we can’t fathom. We mourn her loss, we mourn for her parent’s loss, and we will remember her, but is she not receiving the best love she could get? A perfect love. Her Heavenly Fathers love.
We love you Pierette.
11/19/13 – 08/28/14